Last night I did some woodworking, grilling, and hanging out with friends. It was a perfect way to spend the evening.
And then I got the email.
But first, let’s rewind a little bit.
A couple months I went out to Vegas to shoot a national TV spot, and it was an absolute blast! I got put up in a Vegas hotel, had 4 days of fun shooting B roll, and I got to step out on stage in front of a very large at-home audience.
Not to mention, I got to meet Alyson Hannigan from Buffy the Vampire Slayer!
As soon as the appearance airs, I’m going to use that footage to spice up my current promo video, and then use that video to book cruise ships. I’ve always wanted to work cruise ships because, really, who wouldn’t want to get paid to travel around the Caribbean?!
Fast forward to last night.
I’m walking home from my friend’s place when I check my phone for the first time in hours. (As you probably know, I rarely have my alerts turned on. Protect your attention!)
I see an email from the TV producers, and it has to be the announcement email about what day my episode is airing.
“We regret to inform you. . . .”
I’m not going to be on the show.
4 days on hold to go out to Vegas. $1,000+ spent on brand new wardrobe & props. Plans for what to do with the footage when it airs.
Never going to happen.
Now here’s my chance: I get to choose how I decide to experience this.
See, most folks think that life as a coach means it’s all whiskers and kittens and rainbows 100% of the time. It’s not. Everyone has problems, and they suck.
As I walked around my neighborhood last night I genuinely thought about quitting performing completely.
I figured, “Hey, I have coaching, and design, and a whole lot more going on. This performing thing takes me away from home, and always seems to jerk me around. . .”
And I had to stop myself.
This is why we do the little shit with integrity every day, so when the big shit happens, we know how to handle it.
Just like a single failure doesn’t define who you are, a single opportunity not coming to fruition isn’t going to make or break a career. Penn & Teller aren’t responsible for my success (or lack of it).
I will continue to wake up, put in the effort, and continue to cultivate amazing opportunities that will give me more ways to help even more people.
So, to wrap things up.
I’m sad that my performance will never see the light of day. I did a great job, and knocked it out of the park, but I’ll never see it.
But, on the plus side. It was a great trip to Vegas (check out my personal photo album of the adventure) where I got treated like a king (and got paid for it!). I know more about how TV is made, and what producers are looking for. Plus, I’m already planning what I can do for next season, and it’s going to be fantastic.
Yesterday was great, awful, and isn’t it great to be alive to experience a day like that?